I know she was strong enough to manage the heavy load (which was only half of what she usually carries) because she had been doing it all her life; however, I couldn't help but be ashamed that even with a friend, I struggled to make it all the way back. Shame. There really was no reason to be ashamed; the only reason I was ashamed was because I so desperately wanted to show them that I could do it! That wasn't a very good motive. I shouldn't have been serving to show my strength; I should have been serving out of love. Serving out of love wouldn't worry about appearances and would rely on others' strengths to get the job done.
I am currently finding myself in a situation where I feel completely inadequate and not able to do what needs to be done. God has reminded me of this moment as I have been struggling with the fear of failure. God has been reminding me that it is okay to let Him pick up the heavy load and carry it for me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says that God's power is made perfect in our weakness. Praise God! I need to remember that when God has asked me to complete something that He will provide the tools I need to get it done. I am so weak; however, God is stronger than I can even comprehend.
Are you relying on your strength or God's?