Why do I do that? Why do I need to be concerned with what people see in me? God has shown me time and time again that when people can see the work He is doing in me His glory is revealed. So what holds me back from letting it all show? Shame? I know that shame is not from God, so the only source of that root is from either myself or the enemy. Why would the enemy want to keep me from showing all of myself to people?
One of the things I have learned about dealing with chronic pain is the constant battle of the mind. I have always been a very optimistic person; however, once chronic pain smacked me in the head I found myself battling a daily attitude battle. I think this is because I get so physically tired from battling pain that I've often lost the energy it takes to tolerate some of the negative things that happen. Just because I don't have it in me doesn't mean that God doesn't! Putting myself in the Word daily helps that attitude. But admitting that struggle to people also brings healing to that attitude as well.
Proverbs 3:7-8 NLT says, "Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones."
Instead of being focused on myself and what I can and cannot do and focus on God and His amazing holiness I will want to turn away from my sin. I will want to turn away from my bad attitude. Then I will find healing! Here is another verse that gives us a promise linking the need for forgiveness and healing:
James 5:16 NLT says, "Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results."
So, we do need to be concerned with what people see in us, but in a different sense. We need to be honest with a few close friends who will pray with us. We need to share our struggles and our sins so we can be free of those burdens. When we do that, God's glory is revealed to others so they can witness the healing of our burdens. I do believe that this is also talking of physical healing, but there is a spiritual healing that takes place that is far greater than any physical healing. And this spiritual healing speaks volumes to those that get to witness it because they see the change in you.