Thursday, June 2, 2016

Peace In Pain

"Sharon, do you trust me?"

Those familiar words were spoken in my heart as pain gripped my head through an intense migraine attack.  One of my coping mechanisms during my migraines is to not focus on the pain and to pray for other people.  I was praying for my kiddos but the pain was just too intense and all I could whisper was "God help me," an all-too familiar mantra that the really bad migraines tend to pull out of me.  But I mean it in the real sense; I really am asking God to help me.  I also believe that even though all I can do in that moment is exhale a whisper, it is a prayer that is shaking the rafters in Heaven.  I believe that because I know that God is my only true source of help and I know that He loves me.

As anxiety started to build in me when the pain and other awful accompanying symptoms of the out of control migraine took control, God's voice spoke over it all, "Sharon, do you trust me?" My Lord gave me a dose of peace - one that He would need to give me again and again throughout the migraine. Then my wonderful husband prayed over me and began to read the Bible to me.  You see, God doesn't just speak to my heart, He uses other people to speak to me too.

You may ask why I don't pray for healing.  Oh, I do!  And if you only knew the number of people in my life praying for healing for me, maybe that question would never be asked.  Trust me, that cry for help during the migraine is a cry for healing.  I know God can heal me and I want Him to heal me.  But healing hasn't come and I trust Him.  He has asked me to trust Him.  I have also seen Him do so many amazing things in and through me through this difficult journey of chronic migraines and I still cling to the hope that I will be healed some day.  But I have also been able to testify that it is not my strength but His on many days when people ask me "how do I...?"  Because that is true - I have no physical strength left.

But here is the wonderful take away of our God.  He made sure He wanted me to remember the things He told me in my heart while He was taking away the anxiety that night.  The next morning my wonderful mother-in-law emailed me a verse she prayed over me before she knew what I had been going through that spoke basically what He said to me that night.

Psalm 18:30 (NIV) "As for God, His way is perfect: The Lord’s word is flawless; He shields all who take refuge in Him."

Our God is with us through our difficult journeys.  He may not give us the ending we ask for, but His way is perfect and we can trust Him.  We can trust what He tells us - He makes no mistakes in His word.  We can know that when we call out to Him, He will be our shield.  That is beautiful and wonderful to me and that is what gave me peace that night.

This post is linked with Faith Filled FridayFaith n Friend, Fresh Market Friday, Grace and Truth, and Let Us Grow.

11 comments:

  1. Hi Sharon, I too suffer with migraines and I have had some of the most powerful spiritual experiences in the midst of them, I have often wondered...did I dream them. It is great to hear that someone else uses the time of pain to tune into God.

    Thanks so much for sharing!

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    1. I think that is why I so appreciated how God confirmed all that He spoke to me the next day through that verse. Thanks for visiting!

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  2. Thank-you Sharon that was a great encouragement to me to read this! I pray you will find relief but like you I have come to trust that God has a bigger plan that I don't understand.

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    1. Thanks for visiting and I am so glad that you received encouragement for whatever it is you are currently facing.

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  3. I don't suffer from chronic migraines; I only have them occasionally. But I have suffered chronic bouts of depression. I'm learning that in times of suffering of any type we miss intimacy with God as we try to run from the pain instead of running to God IN it. I read a great memoir about this, Ken Mansfield's Stumbling on Open Ground; it's about his experience of intimacy with God through two bouts of rare cancer. If you'd like to read my review of it you can here: http://www.fruitofbrokenness.com/stumbling-on-open-ground/
    Thank you for sharing your experience of God's faithfulness in and through your pain.

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    1. Thanks for sharing abot the book; I am very interested in it!

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  4. I too suffer migraines. When they hit strong and fierce, all I can do is lie there, face covered, and take deep breaths as I plead for God to help. I completely relate to your post! Over the years, I've started to pay close attention to my body and its signals. I have learned my triggers so I can feel a migraine coming on. Instead of fighting it, I put myself to bed. Sometimes rest is what's needed most. Not always convenient as a mom, but in the end, it's what my body required. Praying you don't suffer one as serious as this again!

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    1. Thank you for visiting, Carrie! Chronic migraines haven't been the path I would have chosen, but I am learning to see how I can let God use them to reach other people that I normally would not have reached.

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  5. This is a precious testimony of our God's particular and personal care for you, His child. Thank you for your brave example of one who recognizes God's hand of provision and care in your life, in spite of the hardship you're facing. I just took some time to pray for you - that God would continue to sustain you and strengthen you, and that He would bless your writing ministry. Thank you for sharing this with us at Grace & Truth!

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    1. Thank you so much for your encouragement and prayer; I really appreciate it!

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  6. Such encouragement here Sharon, and the reminder that just because we are not relieved of or spared from our difficulties, God is still faithful and still good. This was a cool drink of water:) Crystal~

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